There were times in your life where what you can hold on to is that little faith inside of you. I've been wondering what happened? what did I do wrong? how come we've been like this now? where are we?why it seems that I've been here all alone? I really can't believe that we will end up like this. Questions that start to take away all the strength that I have. I actually really don't know where this journey will take me through. But I know for sure life will have something for me maybe not now but I wish a little sooner.
Every day is like a battle field, where my enemy is just myself. I have to fight for the sanity that's pushing me to move forward but this little hope in me keeps on holding on to that wishful thinking that one day you'll be back asking for me to stay. Where you're man enough to stand beside me and offer me the love that once I dreamed of.
I lost myself on this journey, I give what I can and so much willing to give more even if there's nothing left. Can you just tell me please, why is it still not enough? is it that hard to love me back?maybe yes, you do love me. But not that strong to fight for me. I never really wanted to believe the little voice inside my head telling me that all of the things that I thought we are, are just illusions. Illusions of what we should be.
I pray for the courage to do it alone. There's nothing left for me to start with. I don't know how to do things alone. Everything in me feels so weak. You've been my home, my love and my comfort. Now you've taken it all away. I still want to feel your warmth that once was mine. But I don't want it for the last time, I want to have it for the rest of time. Do you feel the same? I wish you do.
Of all this, I know for sure that I'm still hoping, hoping for that little faith to be with you once again. To choose me of all the things that's hindering you from me. I need you so bad. Hope this silent cry will soon last. The moment you decided to come back home.
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