I'm so Done and Long Gone

It's been a year already, a year and three days to be exact when we faced the crossroads and taken different paths. Just wanted to look back to see how life changed me. I'm not sure where this message would lead but one thing I am sure that I'm so done and long gone. 

It's quite empowering knowing that I survived all the sleepless nights, heart-out cries, endless thoughts on how things started to fall apart. That journey is not easy to ride along but that's how life will teach you how to be strong.

First months seems like hell, the darkest part where you don't know where to start. It feels like no one will ever be enough to ease the pain no matter how they tried. I keep on repeating the stories to each person that will try to console my heart, hoping that by doing such, pain will slip away. But truth will eventually slapped me and rubbed in my face that things will never be the same again. 

Months passed by, little did I know I became reckless. I tried everything that I could. No rules, no boundaries, no limitations. I get to interact with different kind of people and for once I felt like I'm alive. I started to live again. I enjoyed everything that I do. Step by step I'm no longer in need of you. I found myself no longer looking for your presence, I can't even vividly recall how it feels to be loved by you.

Then one day I saw your name appeared on my screen, truth be said I felt a bit of uncertainty. My emotions seems having a debate inside my head if whom should I choose to come with me. I'm not sure how to act or what should my answers be, but this is certain, no chances will ever be granted again. And just like what I expected, endless message of regrets, things that should have done, things that should have been and lines of what ifs. And that moment was a bliss. Right there I've gain all the confidence that have taken away. That moment I felt that I am whole again. All the questions instantly turn into answers. I felt that finally I won this battle. I am now on the upper hand. Truly regret will hit you so damn hard but sorry not so sorry my once loved.

Hello dear self, I can proudly say that you are now free from all the heartaches of not so good yesterday. You will no longer be collecting the pieces because now you are whole. You are glued together now and remember that something wonderful will still happen out of a once broken heart.